So my oldest daughter who was just killed by a drunk driver is having her memorial service next Saturday and I was just talking to my fiancé about it last night n every night before that yet today he texts me that he forgot n took OT at work Saturday n Sunday 6am-2:30pm her service is 11am-2pm n we only have one car he will have at work so I will have to go pregnant with my 2 year old alone in a Uber to her service I’m furious I don’t think I can forgive him for this I turned off all the cameras in the house n blocked his cell phone number from texting or calling my phone so he then talks over the speakers in the house n says “I told my boss I can’t do Saturday so u can stop turning off the cameras n throwing a fit I’ll b there” but I don’t think I want him to go with us now the fact he agreed to take the OT was enough to show me how I can’t count on him n then I started to think about when I broke my ankle carrying Brielle in her car seat on the steps I had to call my daughter who passed to take me to drs apps n help me with her sister n then I thought about how in an emergency I don’t bother calling him n I always made excuses for him but honestly it’s just not right ur partner should be the one person u should always be able to count on n I just put my 2 year old down for a nap n I’m sitting here sobbing n crying I just don’t think I can ever get past this I’m so hurt n I don’t want to make any rash decisions but I don’t know if I will be able to get over this EVER