Hey I’m new on here. I just wanted to see if anyone has been through anything as similar as I have. Here’s my story. I got pregnant in July of 2021. It was the best news I’ve heard that year I then went through the 9 months and got my baby boy Kingston on April 18th 2022. It was the happiest day of my entire life he was so precious and the most beautiful thing I have ever seen. 3 weeks later on May 10th I woke up living an actual nightmare my baby passed away to SIDS that day. They say it wasn’t my fault and there was nothing I could do but I always feel guilty that I’m here and my son is not. I was sleep for two hours tops. I put him to sleep and then eventually fell asleep and woke up feeling something wasn’t right so I went to check on my baby and his lips were purple. That was the worst thing I could possibly see and go through in my life and I’m sorry to all the moms who have been and are going through that. I then found out in June of 2022 that I am pregnant. I am currently having another baby boy in March of 2023. This is the most scariest shit of my life. Don’t get me wrong I’m happy that I’m pregnant with his brother and that I’m having a baby. I just miss my King and I don’t want anything like that to ever happen again with my Percy. I’m just terrified and I’m hoping for the best always it’s just hard to be going through this. So if any has any advice who has been through this pls contact me. And for other people please don’t say dumb things like “I can’t imagine” or “some things are meant to happen” bc nothing is meant to happen and you clearly can’t imagine and I promise you don’t want to and I hope you will never have to.