What is placental abruption?

Any moms on here who have ptsd from birth? I almost died 3 weeks ago from a placental abruption and it’s so weird I have nobody to talk to about it who understands. I feel so isolated sometimes. I just feel crazy 😂 anyone else feel this way?

Ugh my anxiety is so bad today 😩 i just want my baby girl in my arms, i didn't know anything about placental abruption until yesterday and now im worried about it smh 🤦🏽‍♀️. Im also worried because im going to the dentist today to get a cracked filling fixed, idk why im like this i pray every day and night and i know deep down she is going to be ok but then i get like this and idk why.

This is gonna sound crazy....I'm just so mixed feelings about this. My daughter is 3 months old and everytime she smiles I cry. Like full on tears crying. I tell myself it's a happy cry but I realized it's also sad. Both pregnancies weren't real easy for me, second one was better than the first. We have our boy and girl. My husband and I said we are done after we had our daughter. I'm crying now typing this because part of me really misses pregnancy and I don't know if I want to be done but I might have to. My second pregnancy, my daughter came at 37 weeks on the dot due to placental abruption. I also had something going on with my pulmonary valve so we are most likely definitely done. But my heart seriously hurts right now. It feels like she's growing so fast before my eyes. Both my kids are. I also always wanted to experience delivery, I guess it's called the natural way? Both of my kids were C-section. My daughter was gonna be the other way but due to pulmonary problems we decided the safer route was C-section. I'm rambling on right now, I'm sorry.....I'm just such a mix of emotions😔😔😔💔💔