Currently crying I’m just so overwhelmed I have a 5.3.1. 2 month old and I had postpartum depression with 3 and I hate myself I feel everyone will be off without me I lose my patience my newborn don’t let me put him down I’m breastfeeding it’s a lot of work. I feel my house is always dirty I don’t cook or clean like I use to I barely careful myself it’s either I cook dinner or get a clean house I start to self sabotage when I don’t get stuff down or when I scream at my 3 year old(he’s been with his I don’t want to. It’s not fair . I hate this. No mom) time outs don’t help belt hitting don’t help I’ve put him on my 1 year old high chair he will sit there yelling I sit him down at table to trace letters he will rip up paper. I feel so useless ? my husband & I don’t have good communication and trust issues when I try to vent to him he seems to turn it on me so I tend to not say what’s on my mind to start an argument I cry about 2x a day I have no friends I literally speak to about 3/4 relatives I feel so alone sometimes I just can’t go on I hate it I hate feeling like this